Taking the first step

5 days until the new year and my focus is to really truly...THINK about, what I am thinking about. I am not making attempts to control my thoughts I just want to document what I am thinking about.
Money, security, choices, habits, work, kids, I think about constantly helping others and what can I do better. How can I make more money? What will make me more finacially secure? Why did I resume smoking cigarettes after quiting for over a year? How did I gain back 15 of the 85#'s I lost? Why am I consumed with past failures that I can NOT change? Why did I get married? Was I ready for that? Why do past wounds always get reopened when I think I have healed? Will I ever truly reach a place of contentment. Why do I self sabotage? Am I good uenough? Why do people post the things they do on fb, whats wrong with people these days? Do I deserve the life I have?  Am I the only one who knows that it takes work to change your perception? Am I the only one that believes that your "PERCEPTION" IS your "REALITY"? Am I the only one who sees the value of eliminating negative thinking? Am I the only one who believes in the power to change your world and the Law of Attraction, yet still logs on to fb faithfully and fills myself with nonsense. Even though I remind myself that THOUGHTS ARE THINGS and do my best to not meditate on these things, I will be the first to admit that these are some of the things that I think about. Just like most people I have become conditioned to the influences of social media and taken in by the distractions that will not allow for complete healing and growth no matter how hard we try. Some one will always have injustice, poverty, lack, sexual perversion, debate driven, crime reporting, inappropriate and pointless post on your time lines. I have a wealth of positive people as well however,  as it happens more often than not 10 praise reports are canceled out by the masses of missing children, abuse, killings, who's sleeping with who. Am I the only one tired of that?  What are you thinking about? Please share get it out all the negative things that are robbing you of living in your purpose and growing to the place of contentment. Even if you don't share, PLEASE write it down in your journal, even a journey of 1,000 miles begins with 1 step.

***My prayer for each of you reading this today
Dear heavenly father,
Please allow each of these women blessed with infinite purpose to embrace your will for their lives.
Allow them to have a year filled with purpose driven contentment. Allow them to nurture the seeds that have been planted and produce fruit that will enlarge their territory and have a positive impact on the lives of others. Lord, I ask that you let the endless creativity  flow in a positive atmosphere nurtured by other woman who also realize that they were created to do greater things than they could imagine. In Jesus name amen