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Learning the Art of Balance

Through it all, I am grateful!

Life or Death You choose

Deuteronomy 30

New King James Version (NKJV)

The Blessing of Returning to God

30 “Now it shall come to pass, when all these things come upon you, the blessing and the curse which I have set before you, and you call them to mind among all the nations where the Lord your God drives you, ² and you return to the Lord your God and obey His voice, according to all that I command you today, you and your children, with all your heart and with all your soul, ³ that the Lord your God will bring you back from captivity, and have compassion on you, and gather you again from all the nations where the Lord your God has scattered you. ⁴ If any of you are driven out to the farthest parts under heaven, from there the Lord your God will gather you, and from there He will bring you. ⁵ Then the Lord your God will bring you to the land which your fathers possessed, and you shall possess it. He will prosper you and multiply you more than your fathers. ⁶ And the Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live.

⁷ “Also the Lord your God will put all these curses on your enemies and on those who hate you, who persecuted you. ⁸ And you will again obey the voice of the Lord and do all His commandments which I command you today. ⁹ The Lord your God will make you abound in all the work of your hand, in the fruit of your body, in the increase of your livestock, and in the produce of your land for good. For the Lord will again rejoice over you for good as He rejoiced over your fathers, ¹⁰ if you obey the voice of the Lord your God, to keep His commandments and His statutes which are written in this Book of the Law, and if you turn to the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul.

The Choice of Life or Death

¹¹ “For this commandment which I command you today is not too mysterious for you, nor is it far off. ¹² It is not in heaven, that you should say, ‘Who will ascend into heaven for us and bring it to us, that we may hear it and do it?’ ¹³ Nor is it beyond the sea, that you should say, ‘Who will go over the sea for us and bring it to us, that we may hear it and do it?’ ¹⁴ But the word is very near you, in your mouth and in your heart, that you may do it.¹⁵ “See, I have set before you today life and good, death and evil, ¹⁶ in that I command you today to love the Lord your God, to walk in His ways, and to keep His commandments, His statutes, and His judgments, that you may live and multiply; and the Lord your God will bless you in the land which you go to possess. ¹⁷ But if your heart turns away so that you do not hear, and are drawn away, and worship other gods and serve them, ¹⁸ I announce to you today that you shall surely perish; you shall not prolong your days in the land which you cross over the Jordan to go in and possess. ¹⁹ I call heaven and earth as witnesses today against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing; therefore choose life, that both you and your descendants may live; ²⁰ that you may love the Lord your God, that you may obey His voice, and that you may cling to Him, for He is your life and the length of your days; and that you may dwell in the land which the Lord swore to your fathers, to Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, to give them.”

I Speak to God and he listens, Not only does he listen, he answers. Today, I hear him and I do as instructed. My choice is to make choices that bring Blessings and Life


 Today, I could  not simply pull a scripture from this chapter. Today, I am reminded of the fact that I choose the things that are in my life. There is no luck good or bad. There are no coincidences. The choice is simple...Life or Death, Blessing or Cursing. It would seem simple enough and most would call it a no brainer
However, daily engaging in activity of THOUGHTS,WORDS, and ACTIONS that are not in line with those things that produce Life and Blessing is INSANITY. Today, I ask myself what choices am I making that bring an imbalance to my scales of choice. What is that tipping point that gives the my Blessing and Life promise less weight than my Cursing and Death promise? How can I tip the scale and remove the Cursing and Death from my life? What must I do to make sure that I am taking full advantage of Gods promise to bring NEW GRACE and MERCY Daily? How can I activate the infinite potential within and reclaim the years that I have allowed to escape me by making choices of Death? How do I rise to the challenge of renewing my mind daily, staying focused on the promises of God, walking in Purpose, living abundantly and leading by example with LOVE, PEACE, and JOY overflowing EVERYDAY. 
I admit that I felt a little overwhelmed just writing it. Today, I am reminding myself that I have a lot of work to do and release the apprehension and anxious feelings that it is going to require me to constantly demand greater control of my THOUGHTS, WORDS, and ACTIONS.
I admit that it is often comfortable to remain where I am and to just live a mediocre existence with  occasions of happiness and fulfillment. I often figure that I am a good person, I love others truly and would never harm another, and that's enough. I often feel like it is the responsibility of someone else to do those things that are placed deep in my heart and continue to grow in my mind. I sometimes want to run and hide and partially obey what God speaks to me. I want to be average sometimes and just fit in to what society say is acceptable. I admit that I too dream of middle class existence and just being ok with that. 
Yet, as much as I would like to believe that the acceptable is enough there is something greater in me that will not allow those feelings to dominate. The more I try to "conform" to those things the more uncomfortable I become. Mediocre is not enough and partial obedience will not suffice. I feel obligated to stand fast and tear down the death and curses in my family and in the lives of others. I know that my life has a PURPOSE that is to live above the acceptable and to reach beyond the greater into the PERFECTION of the PURPOSE within. Today, I choose Life!
 
Today, I challenge to meditate on the promises of Blessing and Life. Ask yourself ,what has to be removed in my life? How do I remove it? How do I walk in the Blessing and Life Promises totally and fully so that it extends into the future generations of those that descend from me? Trust that you have been given ALL that you need to produce the Perfection of the Purpose within.
Now journal it...





Lord, Thank you for your promises and continuing to guide me toward Blessings and Life. Thank you for continuing to speak to my heart. Thank you father your continued Mercy and Grace. Thank you for renewing my mind daily as it wants to conform to the acceptable. Thank you for placing in me and around me examples of greater than acceptable. Forgive me for the times when my desire for comfortable has left me delayed on my path to purpose. Forgive me for my THOUGHTS, WORDS, and ACTIONS that have not been in alignment with the Perfection of my Purpose. Continue to mold me in all the areas of my life in Jesus Name, Amen.
 
The Journey Continues...




 

What if you KNEW you ALREADY WON

2 Chronicles 20:17

New King James Version (NKJV) 

You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, who is with you, O Judah and Jerusalem!’ Do not fear or be dismayed; tomorrow go out against them, for the Lord is with you.”Psalm 20:7

Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; But we will remember the name of the Lord our God.

 

The WARS that I fight are ALREADY WON...No matter what the Journey brings, I KNOW I have WON!

Sooooooo ...

EVERYDAY From THIS DAY forward and for the REST OF MY LIFE...I will LIVE, MOVE, and BREATH with the CONFIDENCE of VICTORY!

 

                            "I expect a MIRACLE EVERYDAY"-Clark Sisters-

 

Today, I focus on the VICTORY in all the WARS of LIFE'S JOURNEY. I fully understand that I have many things in my character that need to be polished and refined. I continue to look into my self, being honest about those changes needed. I am aware of my THOUGHTS shaping my WORDS, so I watch them both and refine them daily. I understand that my ACTIONS will speak louder than both my THOUGHTS and WORDS therefor, I will be diligent and never hasty when taking ACTION toward PURPOSE!

I know that I have habits that will hinder me and cause destiny delay if I allow them to dominate MY THOUGHTS. I continually ask for wisdom to RECOGNIZE and CHANGE these things. I Know that WORDS ARE WEAPONS and I use them to FIGHT the SELF SABOTAGE within:

-I can be stubborn at times---Compromise is essential (Its not about YOU)

-I often lack the discipline to prepare properly--This will cause missed destiny interactions

-I look for all the ways something will NOT work---PERCEPTION is EVERYTHING

-I must not fall into an attitude of INDEPENDENCE-- for I am INTERDEPENDENT I need others to survive and grow

-I can NOT always have things my way---and that's OK

-I often want to make change in others--I can ONLY CHANGE ME and live by example

 

I affirm and do believe that I have won and expect the manifestation of this with daily changes. I can see the changes, and I am embracing the PROCESS. I have WORDS that combat those worthless thoughts that hinder me. I USE them CONTINUOUSLY until it becomes EFFORTLESS... 

 

                          FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION SO TO WAR I GO!!!

 

WORD WARS Today.... I am filled with and overflowing in, 

PERSISTENCE, graced with PATIENCE, consumed by PASSION, walking in infinite POSSIBILITIES, increasing my PERFORMANCE, driven by PURPOSE, always PEACEFUL, very PERSONABLE, understanding life is PRECIOUS, I AM PRICELESS, and this is

                                                    ONLY THE BEGINING...

 I will continue to be an active and willing participate in the refining process, FOCUSED on and having COMPLETE BELIEF that VICTORY is CERTAIN.

The Fighting is OVER! No more pushing it together, No more making it work!. No more chasing dreams that run faster and further away! No more worries about the battles, The fight is fixed...

                                          I ALREADY KNOW THE OUTCOME!

Today, that is enough for me!

 

Today, I challenge you to look at your own WARS on Life's Journey. HONESTLY make an inventory list asking yourself 1 question, what needs to be changed in ME? Pray with full belief that it has already happened. Make a daily renewed affirmation that is both personal and progressive

Now Journal it... 

 

Lord, Thank you for continuing to grant me Grace and Mercy. Thank you for showing me those things in my life that need to be refined. Continue to Mold me into an evident example of my affirmations that I will speak persistently over my life. Lead me onto a path where I am ever present in the reality that I AM WHAT GOD SAY I AM. In Jesus Name Amen

 

 The Journey Continues...

Got DESTINY?

Proverbs 18:4 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,And those who love it will eat its fruit

I speak Life for the my God given visions, I know that my continued training of my words will cause my actions to follow.
Today, I continue to think on those things that produce Life. Today, I remind myself to keep my mind and heart focused on my Vision. Today, even though my mind tries to fill space with distraction I remind myself that...
I will NOT allow constant distraction,to lead to loss of interaction with my...
 
Destiny transaction, leaving no satisfaction, almost fatal attraction.
at times,and...
Even though I'm not a contortionist, I often feel twisted...
at times,
Seems Like I could loose my mind...
at times,
Til I arrive, Continuously Soul Searching yet still...
at times,
It feels like I'm running a race with no finish line,so it seems...
at times, 
Never contemplating giving up,but...Crying Lord, HOW LONG?
at times,
Yesterday's faults arise
at times,
Remembering my many blessings, lessons learned...
at times,
Evolution endless within and continued changes I begin,
at times,
Virtue driven, needing constant mercy and forgiveness,
at times,(many times), at times,
Even when I feel I am starring in a Mission Impossible movie
at times,
Absolutely certain that I was placed on earth for a purpose...
at times,
Lord, guide me as I allow it to surface, be patient while I birth it...
at times
Even though,
at times, I...
Don't deserve it...I vow to NEVER give up on completing my

LIFE'S PURPOSE 

As God EXPANDS my VISION I understand that distractions will be present at times. I understand that, I must continually devote more time to training my mind through WORDS of affirmation and continued preparation.Even on days I don't "FEEL"like it is working for me. Even when I cant see that it is working. Even when I fall short and have a "natural" human moment, where there is no SUPER, or so it seems. Even when I want to stop and not fulfill my dreams I will step back only long enough to PUSH (Pray,Until,Something,Happens) forward. Each and EVERY time gaining more confidence and determined to lead a life of excellence. Yesterday is gone! Tomorrow will get here soon enough, TODAY I will stay focused on the fact that, MY GREATEST ASPIRATION, and my DAILY AFFIRMATION is that...
                 I AM WHAT GOD SAYS I AM!
TODAY and EVERYDAY that is enough for me! 

Today, I challenge you to ask yourself again, WHAT IS MY PURPOSE? Allow your DESTINY to be REVEALED to you!
Now Journal it...


Lord, I thank you for the continued ability to grow through the changes need to prepare for completing a life filled with purpose. I ask you to continue to remove distractions, and all those things that may attempt to hinder me. I ask that if distractions are to bring lessons during my journey, I am able to discern them and use them for my benefit. I thank you father for continuing to search my heart and remove ALL the things that are not like you. Continue to mold me as I surrender my will to do that which I was purposed to do, In Jesus Name, Amen    

The Journey Continues...

My Mama Didnt Raise No Fool

Proverbs 1:21-23
How long, ye simple ones, will ye love simplicity? and the scorners delight in their scorning, and fools hate knowledge?
Proverbs 12:14-16
The way of fools seems right to them, but the wise listen to advice
Ecclesiastes 7:8-10
Be not hasty in thy spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools.
Ecclesiastes 9:16-18
Words of the wise, spoken quietly, should be heard Rather than the shout of a ruler of fools.

            Wisdom and Foolishness can not occupy the same space
Even when you are 100% RIGHT you may be 100% Wrong....Timing and Environment are key!

 

Today, I reflect on the fact that my hasty actions will make a fool of me...If I let them.

Today, I reflect on the growth in my ability to heed "WISE" counsel.
Today, I reflect on the fact that Wisdom does not have to be spoken loudly. Even Wisdom spoken in the wrong place at the wrong time is foolish.
Today, I am reflecting on the fact that the more I learn...the more learning I have to do

I had a interaction on social media today that helped me to understand that timing and execution is imperative. During the mornings as I usually do, I checked my social media sites and this morning was no different. I liked the usual motivational post and twisted my lips up smh at the usual garbage. I was stopped by one post as I had been up at 4 am with WORDS on my mind. What stopped me was the potential impact that it may have on the person posting as well as the "likers" and others. I was IMMEDIATELY compelled to offer correction to this person and let them know that this was NOT in line with the standard expected of them. I was running late for work and decided in HASTE to place my corrective comment on the post. My comments were removed immediately an this made me angry, because "I" was RIGHT...They were WRONG... and "I" was RIGHT. I then in boxed this person to let them know just how RIGHT I was... RIGHT?  I allowed my need to be "RIGHT" over ride my intent to communicate what was RIGHT and that... was WRONG! This has yielded a PRICELESS lesson that I will forever be grateful for. The lesson was one I had learned before and never taken the time to analyze in the context of being a FOOL and...My Mama didn't Raise no FOOL! What I should have done was in boxed those things I was led to share with this individual in private, from a place of love and offer the WISDOM of what was 100% RIGHT but delivered 100% WRONG. My true hearts desire is to make a POSITIVE and PROFOUND affect on the lives of others with only the EXPECTATION that it will produce LIFE and growth to be passed on to others. However, this could not be accomplished because it was received as an attack on the character of this person. Open and in public I in fact had "called them out". It was the equivalent of checking someone in the open about a personal matter that needed to be handled personally. I was only supposed to plant a seed, yet I wanted to plant it and watch it grow in front of me...WRONG! I allowed my knowing I was RIGHT, but acting with a hasty spirit make me WRONG.
My lesson: Before responding to others I must Analyze the Environment, Pray that my WORDS are Life Producing, Remove my emotions from my Response, Remember that I don't want to be 100% RIGHT and 100% WRONG at the same time! I must remember that I AM NOT a FOOL!

Today, I challenge you to reflect on the times where you were 100% RIGHT...and 100% WRONG.
Now Journal it...

Lord, Thank you once again for your Grace and Mercy that is renewed daily. I thank you for the WISDOM to receive the correction of my actions. I thank you for giving me a peaceful and humble spirit that does not value the need to be RIGHT over the Purpose in my life. I thank you for placing these lessons in my life and providing me with the ability to recognize and receive every blessing in them. I thank you for the will and ability to apply the principles of the lessons immediately and continuously. I humbly ask that you continue to provide me with gentle correction as I Journey to my best me. In Jesus Name, Amen
The Journey Continues... 

Word WARS

Proverbs 18:4 The words of a man’s mouth are deep waters; The wellspring of wisdom is a flowing brook
Proverbs 6:2 You are snared by the words of your mouth; You are taken by the words of your mouth.

If You say what you see then you will ALWAYS see what you say!
I believe those things I say bout myself and so I choose to say things that give me LIFE.

Today, I will focus on those WORDS that describe what I am an what I intend to be. I talk to people daily and I find 1 common thing in most conversations. WORDS that don't bring life, and place the exact opposite in the universe. Most often casual and joking, but still they run deep and manifest themselves in our lives. WORDS are the THINGS that God used to shape the universe and a GIFT given ONLY to humans (created in his image) yet we treat them as a casual and powerless means of expression while using them as weapons to destroy ourselves and others.We say things like, you're stupid, you're a fool, I'm clumsy, I'm lazy, I'm forgetful, I'm slow, I'm fat, I'm greedy, I'm broke, and on an on. I admit that I am guilty of engaging at times and when I do it feels unnatural. The reason I believe this is because I know that WORDS have such power and I truly value them.
Today, I am Sharing something that I do often. You my find simple... but its me, and transparent is what you get. Word WARS is what I call it and the rules are simple you just cluster a bunch of adjectives that describe the you presently or those things that you TRULY want to be here goes mine...
                                                    I AM WHAT GOD SAYS I AM

I AM Blessed, Prosperous, Wise, Gracious, Healthy, Loving, Kind, Cheerful, Highly Favored by God and man, Insightful, Faithful, Understanding, Forgiving, Even Tempered, Bold, Confident, an Advocate, Intercessor, Dependable, Organized, Financially Secure, Sound Decision Maker, Motivator, Peaceful, Always Expecting Greatness, Strong Minded, Helpful, Content with the Present and Driven to create a better Future, Ready for life's Battles, Over comer,  Debt free, Poised, Infinite Potential bearing, Soul Wining, Life Changer, Daily Meditation Practicing, Mediator, Persistent, Patient, Truth teller, Kingdom Dweller, Limit Pusher, Destined for Greatness, Blessed with a Purpose, Child of the King of Kings, Expecting ALL the JOY life brings, Up word Moving, Forward Thinking, Self Controlled, Continually Positive, Delightful, Listener, Growing into my Best Me.









Today, I challenge you to create your own War with Words
Now Journal it...
 
Lord, I thank you for creating me in YOUR image and giving me the gift of WORDS. Thank you for giving me the UNDERSTANDING of the POWER that this gift bears. Grant me the continued grace to correct those words I speak that do not align with life producing and purpose driven manifestation. Father continue to speak to my heart and allow me to speak words that will bring those things I desire Allow me to see the reality and still speak what I desire with boldness and faith, In Jesus Name Amen. 
The Journey Continues...

My Heart will NOT be Heavy!

Excuses are for the weak and Incompetent...I am NEITHER



Proverbs 12:25 Heaviness in the heart of a (Wo)Man maketh it Stoop: but the GOOD word maketh it glad.
Psalms 49:3 MY Mouth SHALL Speak of Wisdom; and my Heart shall be of Understanding

I will continue to lighten my Heart and Move forward!
I will not carry the burden of falling short when I know that the PROVISION is available!







Today, I am reminding myself that  Life will surely give me Lessons as long as I am Focused on PURPOSE! Today, I humble myself and again come back to a place of repentance for the lack if diligent use of the PROVISION PROVIDED! I allowed my heart being heavy and full of wanting my PROVISION to be on "My Terms". I could use the excuse that my computer being temporarily out of commission is a valid excuse for neglecting my assignments as instructed. I could say that the inconvenience of sitting on the floor and looking up at the television was disruptive to the process. I could continue to convince myself that my failure to do what I am PURPOSED to do was hindered by circumstances beyond my control.  I could Justify my shortcoming by stating that I was reading, writing and studying principles keeping my mind focused. Yes, I could continue to rehearse the many excuses that I have come up with in the past few days...

But the truth is...THAT IS A LIE! Just like past distractions, my current situations are no different. Those things in the past that I have allowed to keep me distracted from PURPOSE will remain present as long as I continue to use them as a crutch. As usual God has built in ALL the NEEDED PROVISION when the ASSIGNMENT was given. He ALWAYS does! I had at my disposal several other devices, however they were not "set up" like I wanted. I told myself I didn't have the time and energy to work around not having my templates and the ability to "dress up" my post the way I had envisioned it! Today, I reminded myself that there is no point in having a back up plan if you don't use it. Today, I reminded myself of something that my mom has told me ALL of my life...
IF YOU DON'T USE IT... YOU LOSE IT!

The INSTRUCTION was simple...Write DAILY  in the format given and SHARE it!

Today, I was reminded that failure to use what God had set up as PROVISION was the equivalent of being ungrateful for what I have even if using it is not the most convenient solution. Today, I appreciate the loving and gentle reprimand of God and move forward knowing that everything is in divine order.
Today, my HEART is lighten by the willingness to be wrong, and acknowledge it, Speak words of WISDOM to my HEART,  reject condemnation, and continue to JOURNEY..." I have many miles to go before I sleep"-Robert Frost

Today, I challenge you to remember ALL of the times when God has given you the PROVISION to walk in your PALACE of PURPOSE. Remember the ways that you have allowed temporary situations, or the fact that the PROVISION was not in the form you desired to stop you!
Now Journal it.....

Lord,
I humbly ask for your forgiveness of my ungratefulness for ALL that you have done and continue to do for me. I acknowledge that many times I have failed to utilize the gifts and PROVISION you have given me to the fullest potential. I thank you for gently correcting me and continuing to renew my mind and keep me focused. I thank you father for not removing your grace from my life and giving me UNDERSTANDING of how to press forward. I thank you for keeping my HEART free from heaviness and for continuously speaking to my HEART . I trust that EVERYTHING  is in divine order and that even in falling short there is a priceless lesson for this Journey, In Jesus Name AMEN!



The Journey Continues...

I May Be Super....Natural, But I Am Fragile...Handle With Care

Matthew 10 Amplified Bible (AMP)29 Are not two [j]little sparrows sold for a penny? And yet not one of them will fall to the ground without your Father’s leave (consent) and notice.30 But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.31 Fear not, then; you are of more value than many sparrows.32

God Loves me enough to count the hair on my head. That is enough for me

Today, I meditated on the fact that GOD LOVES me. He cares about even the smallest details of my life. Even the things that I would never concern myself with. 

Today,I have had an eventful day to say the least. 

-Up at 3am

-Worked alone today, my partner was ill

-1kid stuck in the snow

-Another needs to get to work

-2 more at school to pick up

-I hit a pot hole----Flat tire

I feel blessed that just as I have confessed all of the PROVISION to do what was needed was given. I really did have a JOYFUL day.

As I promised I would be, I will be transparent so I will also add that... 

Today, I also felt overwhelmed, under valued and just tired of being SUPER...Natural! I am a mother and I have been for more than half of my life. I am the go to for EVERYTHING with my children and yes, I am honored, but I am tired of fixing EVERYTHING! I am a wife, sister, friend, nurse, cook, daughter,cheerleader, coach, advocate, intercessor, chauffeur, comforter, enforcer and the list goes on!  

Most people would describe me as a STRONG person. That is true, I am Strong! But what most people fail to realize is that I am also fragile and I need careful handling. I have been broken more than a few times by life, and just like the new skin of a healed wound I was MADE STRONG by being broken. I did not wake up one day and just place this SUPER...on my NATURAL self. Sometimes even I am fragile....so handle me with care. I have cried more than I have laughed.That is why I laugh so much, I'm playing catch up you see. I have gone without more than I care to remember and I simply refuse to continue to neglect me anymore. I have given more than I had to the point of almost being empty. I have made myself vulnerable to those who NEVER earned it, only to hear "nobody told you to do that". I am IMPORTANT enough for God to count my hair, yet at times I feel useless.That is insane! I have heard "girl I just don't know how you do it" more than I can remember and the truth is...me neither! I now realize that my STRENGTH was BIRTHED out of the WEAKNESS that God used to cover and protect me because He knew that there would not be another human on this earth that would take the time to see the fragile pieces of me. 

Today, I Challenge you to find the SUPER...in your NATURAL and acknowledge your value! I mean I really LOVE my kids but I am NOT counting their hair! OHHHHH how he loves you...Now Journal it...

Lord, I thank and praise you for continuing to bless and keep me. I thank you Father for Always providing for me. Give me this day a renewed strength and help guide me into an increase of SUPER...on my NATURAL life. In Jesus name Amen

The Journey Continues...

I Will keep Moving Forward...This is Only a TEST!


Psalm 5:11

But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee.

Excuses are for the weak and incompetent, I am neither! No Excuses!

Today, I am meditating on the JOY even in the middle of construction. I sat to Journal,work on my business plans/proposals, send emails... and discovered that one of my dear, blessed, loving children have broken my lap top screen. I wanted to walk away and accept defeat. I wanted to say "see it's always something". I simply wanted to give up. I wrestled with just leaving things as they were and came up with many reasons to not honor what I said I would do. Then I remembered that just as the television stations test the emergency broadcasting system...This is only a test! I was not made to allow things to stop me. I can not let constant changes in my level of comfort annoy me past the point where I stray from my path of purpose. I am learning to find JOY in the wilderness so that I am ready for the JOY in the promised land. If I can not master this test it will continue to be given to me. Today, I choose to be full of JOY for the PROVISION that God has given me. Today, I will do what has to be done with JOY even if it is NOT MY WAY. The lesson for me is that things will happen beyond my control. There will be delays, setbacks, I will fall short, I may miss deadlines and I can still have JOY. I can still delight myself in the fact that I am able to find the resources needed to get the job done! Today, I will NOT let what I can not change stop me from changing! Today, I will move forward and improvise, I will find the provision to complete the tasks that have been set before me. Today, I will remember that I AM a KINGS KID! Today, I will remember that delays and set backs are inevitable and my reaction to them is critical. Today, I will look for the ways IT CAN BE DONE. Today, I will not stand in the storm and throw a temper tantrum. I will keep moving with JOY. I will make a choice to trust in my source and rejoice in all that life has given me.

Today, I challenge you to press through a change that makes you uncomfortable. Deal with a situation that appears to be a block as if it were ONLY A TEST OF THE EMERGENCY BROADCASTING SYSTEM! Then Journal the JOY...

Lord, 

Allow me to have continued JOY despite of the changes that I may face. Allow me to seek and find the provisions that you have set in place for me. Keep me focused on doing what I have to do to get the desired outcome of greatness. Allow me to continue to use my gifts moving forward without any reservations of defeat. Thank you for allowing me to continue to have you grace and mercy renewed daily. Thank you for keeping me in peace and showing me the Life lessons that are required as I Journey through life. Thank you for not giving up on me even when I dont deserve it. In Jesus name...Amen

The Journey Continues...

I Am Growing into My Best Me...RENOVATION IN PROGRESS...

Proverbs 8:10 Receive my instruction, and not silver; and knowledge rather than choice gold.

I value GROWTH and DESIRE a CHANGE that is PERMANENT and PRICELESS. The work required may cause me to be uncomfortable, but I am ready for RENOVATION...

Today, I am focused on LISTENING to what it is I need to hear to continue to move forward. I am fully aware of my PURPOSE and no longer will I allow emotion and distraction hinder it's birth. I am in the third trimester of my pregnancy with PURPOSE. I am at the very end where you no longer feel maternal. You know, when you just want IT out of you. The point where you have accepted the fact that the time is now. I have fallen in love with it but... I am tired of carrying my PURPOSE and allowing it to live inside of me! I love the fact that I have been blessed with PURPOSE and I have nurtured it inside of me. Now, I just want to see it, touch it, watch it grow outside of me! I want to marvel at the blessing that God placed inside of me while watching it grow outside of me. I know that I have a lot of work to do and, I can do it. I know that there will be days when I don't want to be accountable for this new life that God has given me. I know there will be times when I ask myself "did I really want this"? I know that I will lose sleep caring for my PURPOSE. I know that once my PURPOSE is born I will loose people I hold dear to my heart. I know that most people wont understand or accept my PURPOSE. I know that there will be those that attempt to remind me of those areas in life where I fell short of being what I am destined to be...I am fine with that as well. I am confident in my ability to trust the process, and develop my thoughts, aligned with my words, driving my actions into a place where I have allowed following INSTRUCTION to send me in a direction of PURPOSE. 

"True acquisition of WISDOM comes only after a HEART has asked God for the GIFT, the MIND has MEDITATED on,and UNDERSTANDS it's worth, and the to BODY has developed discipline to fuel the SOUL desire to pursue WISDOM regardless of the trials that lay on the paths towards her." -AJG-

Today, I challenge you to really think about why you are here. What is it that you REALLY want to do? I mean, what keeps coming back to you over and over again? What keeps you up at night thinking? What is the thing you want to do more than anything in this world? What is your PURPOSE? Now Journal it...

Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for your continued grace and mercy renewed and sent to follow me daily. I thank you for allowing me to continue to be forgiven for falling short and not being all you have called me to be. Allow me to have an obedient and humble heart with a passion toward fulfilling my intended PURPOSE.Lord, grant me the WISDOM to recognize exactly what I need to do, when I need to do it, and exactly how I need to do it. Remove those things which may hinder me from my life and my heart. Allow everthing needed to be drawn closer so that I will continue to have smooth transitions into places of infinite possibilities. In Jesus name...Amen
The Journey Continues...

My Sister...Wisdom

Proverbs 7:4
Say unto wisdom, Thou art my sister; and call understanding thy kinswoman:

I have JUST enough WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING to do what I am doing right now! 

Today, I embrace the WISDOM that God has given me thus far. I am thankful in advance for more WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING. I am comforted by the fact that I have ALWAYS have just enough WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING to overcome all of my past obstacles. I am GRATEFUL that I am able to call WISDOM my sister and that UNDERSTANDING has been there as a kinswomen. I may not have UNDERSTANDING in the midst many past storms. However, I have ALWAYS been GRACED with enough WISDOM to know that it WILL PASS. I have ALWAYS been BLESSED with enough WISDOM to look back and find a lesson in my storm. What I learn changes but the process is the same. New Challenge, trial, error, correction, repetition (if needed, and ohhhh yeah I need it sometime, OK most times),TEST, PASS then repeat... NEW CHALLENGE. If I fail the TEST, I repeat the cycle, if I PASS, I move on and the Challenge is GREATER! For me, the first week of the year has been full... my cup is running over, literally! I have had confirmation beyond belief that... I AM WHAT GOD SAYS I AM! I truly love life and embrace it's ability to be renewed and re birthed over and over. I marvel at the countless transitions and growth through my constant Journey for more WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING.

Things I was blessed with WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING on from GOD and my SISTERS this week... I wont call you out but... I did put your initials next to the things I got from you! I am eternally grateful for you and taking the time to do what you have for me this week, even if you did not intend to you have blessed me beyond words!

-You always want it your way, and you need to stop that! Ouch that hurt!-my mother of course
-I said to write daily(God)... and you missed Sunday!--S.O.W ;-)
-Trust that YOUR PURPOSE is capable of living outside of you!-E.B/A.S/S.O.W and of course-MOM 
-Trust that your gift is NOT yours to keep, it is to be given to others, used, nurtured and cultivated-E.B
-My WORDS need WORK-E.B
-Removing clutter is essential... Someone or Something may be blocking your miracle--A.S
-Increase your FOCUS!--ME
-You CAN LET IT GO! E.B
-You need to Remain Focused on your words--E.B

My prayer for confirmation was answered instantly! It was overwhelming to say the least. I am to full to even express it in words so, I wont!

E.B also gave me the WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING of my need to dig deeper into taming my tongue and suggested that I read CHANGE YOUR WORDS, CHANGE YOUR LIFE- Joyce Myer... I am passing this Wisdom on and STRONGLY SUGGEST you do the same. I got my copy on Amazon for $3.99.

I learned last week that for as far as I have come I have so much further to go. Today, I am thankful for the elite few that God has chosen to speak through and to during the first week of this JOURNEY!

I CHALLENGE you to reflect on what you learned this past week. What needs work? What have you gained WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING on? What do you need to work on in you? What is it that makes you less than the best you? Now... Journal it

Dear heavenly father, 
I thank you for continued WISDOM and UNDERSTANDING of those things needed to perfect those things in my life which concern me. More importantly, I thank your for your ever present correction of those things in my life that concern you and may hinder my Journey to fulfilling my purpose in life. I thank you for continuing to allow GRACE and MERCY to follow me. I thank you Lord for allowing me the opportunity to flow smoothly as I transition into NEW CHALLENGES, with expanded vision, life producing words and actions that grow me into all that YOU SAY I AM. Thank you for continuing to remind me that... I AM WHAT GOD SAYS I AM!

The Journey Continues...

Writing the Vision

Habakkuk 2:2 And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it.


The Journey Continues...


***This week is a week for digging past the journals of last week and moving to the VISIONS of TODAY to create a foundations for the life you were created to live! I will do it, so can you!


My vision is expanding and its infinite potential is greater than I can imagine. I am ALWAYS walking on the right path, in the right place at the right time. I am continuously doing EXACTLY what I need to do to get me through this journey.


Today, I am reflecting on the answers that God has given me. I know that I have a lot of work to do but I also know that this journey is going to be AMAZING! There is no greater reward than knowing that you are capable of more than you can imagine. I know this beyond any doubt and I am focused on this journey to greatness. 
Writing the VISION may be easily done, LIVING THE VISION,will require dedication, self control, persistence, and infinite unwavering FAITH. 


My Self Fulfilling Prophecy


As a descendant of Royalty, I walk in my destiny even though paths are unknown. My life's experience has continually shown me, Infinite levels of possibilities. As Wisdom consumes me, I will allow the Lord to use me. Promises of territory as far as the eyes can see, Yes, that excites me! So I pray for expansion of my mental VISION,  Knowing my God meets EVERY provision. When I am ready, MY PURPOSE he reveals. When he created me he knew my skills. Knew I could do his will, so I will... Never let the sun awake before me, and give praise as he constantly RESTORES me. My life ABUNDANTLY filled, no wants or fears all of my years. Blessings beyond understanding,with my very presence demanding peace and even though far from perfect, still VIRTUOUS! Just serious enough for no non sense to approach me,yet approachable. Even though I may have the role of a coach at times I remain coachable. Humble and extraordinarily patient, never complacent. No more room for procrastination. Living with complete cooperation and phenomenal organization. So optimistic, most believe that its unrealistic. But as for me, I can see that my WORDS create a SELF FULFILLING PROPHECY. As for my children, I pray they stand strong and remain humble. Even though they may stumble and fall, they shall rise and stand tall, at the perfect time they too will answer the call of their individual purpose. I see curse breaking anointing birthed from my children. I see them never plagued by poverty, no misery, overflowing with GREATNESS and for generations continued reflections of BLESSINGS. 


I AM WHAT GOD SAYS I AM


Today, 
I choose to trade my past bitterness for blessings, I know I cant keep both.
I trade my defensiveness for acceptance of Divine critique required for destiny completion. One is optional the other is mandatory
I choose to trade my doubt for definite purpose, the two can NEVER occupy the same space.
I choose to trade may walls for wisdom and give it free range to consume me.
I choose to trade my free will for self control and molding of my mind, body, and soul.
I choose to trade self made limitations, for release of infinite potential
I choose to trade judgement for seeing for the good in all and knowing that God has given us ALL porpose. 


What is your VISION?
I Challenge you today to reach inside you, and dig deeper past the hurt, set backs, and those things that keep you where you are. Forget the loss and what should have, could have, would have been.. Journal it as you want to see it from your heart ask yourself, What do I want to see when I look at me? Now write it


Dear heavanly father,
Thank you for loving me and keeping me in your continually renewed grace and mercy. I ask that you continue to free my mind of self imposed limitations and replace them with FAITH in the infinite promises for my life. Regulate the thought process of my children so that they may exercise the full capibilities of their mind to use it for good.Teach me Lord how to give correct counsel and plant seeds to birth rightous thoughts and visions of greatness.Thank you Lord for the precious gift of thought, help me to use this gift wisely  

Be Patient with me... I'm Growing through something.

Proverbs 4:7 "Wisdom is the principal thing;Therefore get wisdom. And in all your getting, get understanding".

The Journey Continues...

Wisdom and Understanding are priceless  principles...I am in constant motion toward the immeasurable depth of them both.

Today, I am reflecting on journals from the past. I see that the journeys have always led in the same direction. I look back for answers to questions and they are there. Today, I am going to dig deep into journals from my past and perhaps sharing will bury the feelings.That is my EXPECTATION... This is my bridge and I'm going to cross over it. Perhaps, its to inspire those who may read this to dig to the immeasurable depth of whatever it is that you have allowed to make you stop right at the junction point of your destiny! What hurt you so bad that at times you feel that your not worthy? OK, well maybe its just me....BE PATIENT WITH ME I'M GROWING THROUGH SOMETHING.

Pregnant at 15, I had my first child at 16 and I was NOT ready. I thought that I was ready, I mean on the outside I was ready. I appeared to be ready, I had the support of the father and I was sure that my plans for life were still going to flourish. I was going to go to college, I was still going to law school, I knew exactly what I was going to do. The only difference was that I was having a baby. Right? I was just EXPECTING...

*Journals from a 15 y/o pregnant girl....

EXPECTING...

What are you looking at?
Yes, I am... can't you see Of course I see you looking at me!
EXPECTING...
That I am ashamed,
Surely, my parents are to blame.
Because, I am only 15 and...
EXPECTING...
That my life will never be the same
Cause I done ran off and played the "Grown Up" game.
Instead of skating on Saturday nights.
I'm making up baby names, because I'm...
EXPECTING...
Now,
Attitude change, Damn... nothings the same!
Every other sentence was "I Love You",
Now... you act like you don't know my name!...
I suppose its cause...
I'm
EXPECTING...
A "boy" to do what a "man" often will not.
Why didn't I remember,
"I am the Master of my fate, and the captain of my soul"
Why did I loose all my control?
How did I get to the place where  I started
EXPECTING ...
That someone would complete me and...
When did I become not enough for me and...
Looking in the mirror but I cant recognize me, because I'm...
Expecting
All alone singing to my baby and...
EXPECTING
That he will Love me Unconditionally
EXPECTING
That, despite ALL the odds being against me
I shall emerge victoriously
EXPECTING
Frustration
Praying to God for Wisdom, to turn it into Motivation
EXPECTING
Not to always be shame
That I came played hard and lost the grown up game
Praying hard now asking God to keep my heart for it needs Protecting
He calms me with these words my child keep on
EXPECTING
That out of this life great things I will bring
And even when the middle the day is the darkest, or so it seems
Keep on
EXPECTING
Great Things

 Today, I add that...
At this time in my life those whom I EXPECTED to help me left. My Mom turned her back on me or so it seemed. EXPECTING fairy tale dreams and a thinking it would be easy faded quickly,  I know now that it was heartbreaking for my mother to see her 15 y/o EXPECTING. I know now that she must have felt that the life she poured into me may be lost, because I was not ready but I was EXPECTING. I now know that she could not bare what I was EXPECTING. I know that even though her faith kept her EXPECTING greatness in my life, she could not carry this for me. Letting go was the ONLY way she could keep on EXPECTING. I know that her prayers carried me when physical, and emotional support could not. I know now that she wrestled with the idea of just keeping me close, but I broke her heart changing the dreams of how my life would go and ALL that she was EXPECTING. I know now that "Tough Love"was the only way she knew to make me strong enough for the journey ahead. I know now that her faith in God was the only way for her to deal with this and she too was EXPECTING. I know that the devil was EXPECTING that without support I would be broken. I know now that I was bitter over the loss of control in my life, and at 16 years old, I was a mother. I was EXPECTING a 16 y/o boy to settle down and be all that I was EXPECTING. I know now that he was just a boy at the time and this was NOT what he was EXPECTING. I know now that he could only deal with the financial part of EXPECTING. I know now he too was terrified being 16 and EXPECTING. I know now that it was meant to end just as it did, and even though it was not what I was EXPECTING. I was made stronger and that is the PRICELESS lesson that I wasn't EXPECTING 


I challenge you to deal with whatever it is that life has given you that didn't go as you were EXPECTING. I challenge you to reflect and think deeper into a past EXPECTATION,  and Journal it. First, from the voice that you would have when you were in that moment. Then journal it from the perspective of having the hindsight to see that you gained a priceless lesson that you were NOT EXPECTING. If you can not see the lesson, ask God and I PROMISE you he will show you.



Dear Heavenly Father,
I EXPECT that you are are allowing me to see things as you see them. I believe that you have given me the Wisdom to continue to Journey with an EXPECTATION of greatness. Thank You for continuing to love me despite of me. Thank you Lord for preparing me and EXPECTING me to do all that you have called me to do. In Jesus name Amen